"Waiting For The Other Shoe To Drop"

Well, it's been almost two years since I've posted.  So much for going from surviving to thriving!!!  It's been a rough couple of years and yet it has been a time of great healing.  God has put the scattered pieces of our family back together again and, in many ways, has made it better.  My heart still longs to see our grandson come back, but only God can perform a miracle to make it happen.  I am learning to surrender that which cannot be accomplished by my efforts into the hands of the One who can do far better, in fact, above and beyond what I can ask or think!

The last two years we have been trying to find the correct combination of meds to offset what my brain doesn't do.  Lots of ups and downs associated with this endeavor.  I think we are on the right track and that 2017 proves to be the best year in this search.  A neurologist eliminated many of the things that has caused my tremors and put me on something that is helping to offset the shakes.  I am truly hopeful we have crossed the threshold.

And now, why I entitled this, "Waiting For The Other Shoe To Drop"!  I was just reading in Psalm 112:7-8, "He (righteous man) will have no fear of bad news; his heart is steadfast, trusting in the Lord.  His heart is secure, he will have no fear."  I had to ask myself to honestly assess if this verse is true of me.  I can only describe my dilema as gingerly putting my foot on the ice and very carefully stepping out while intensely looking for the ice to crack under my feet.  It is very humbling to admit this and I would much rather tell you I have no problem in the area of trust.  So many of you have been such an example of faith and trust which makes it all the more apparent that I lack.

BUT...I have a new opportunity in 2017 to grow in learning to trust and having no fear of what God has prepared for me.  I don't believe I read these verses by accident -- God is doing a new work within me!!!  I look forward to more healing of my body and greater faith.  In spite of me, God works in me!!!  How grateful I am it doesn't depend on me!!!

I look forward to posting from time to time.  Even being able to write this indicates a great deal of healing.  Thank you for all your encouragement.